Nomadic travelers and Gypsies

I recently been watching this show on TLC called "My Big Fat Gypsie Wedding" and I find the whole elaborate and over the top weddings and the huge and  storybook gowns so enchanting. although all the glits and glamour is attractive the lifestyle is not so fairtytale like.I am not here to discuss about the that though because I don't feel like being too serious and since I haven't done extended research about their lifestyle I am not in the position to fully debate my opinions and feelings about the lifestyle of being a gypsie. all I can say is that i find it intriguing and I wouldn't mind learning more about it. although I do not agree with some of the traditions and the female roles in the lifestyle. what I like is the way how the females have the freedom to dress any any unique and ridiculous way she chooses and their don't have to be considered promiscuous because when a female is seem showing a bit too much skin they would be considered a hooker. I don't dress thus way I don't really show allot of skin when I dress I have a fashion rule I live on and for the most part I follow it sadly I have broken it a few times but honestly I have days where I'm not dressed to kill anywho I don't want to get off topic so moving on.
                 I have been thinking allot about this and I think I would have liked to be a traveling nomad. not having a specific place to call home is not the best of ideas but what I see as a positive is that I can learn and explore the wold or at least the country since I probably would not feel save traveling over seas very quickly. I would make a great nomad because I always have the urge to not be in one place for long I hate feeling tied down to one place and the fact that I never feel I am home yet I don't think i found home. so if I travel around I might find myself a home somewhere and if it's not a specific house, place town or any lot I will be okay to be able to find home within myself because I want to find that comfort where something is just mine and my own safe sanctuary so someday I hope I find it until then I cant stay in one place. now doing this wont be easy and maybe it wont happen but I hope I get the chance to travel around this country and maybe find what I am looking for. I would also love if I get to do this with someone by my side because i do fear being alone and I want to share this journey in my life with someone who maybe might as well need this journey for themselves for whatever personal reason they need it. so until that day comes where I can be able to go on a road trip and feel like a nomad I can always dream and landscape a plan in my head of how this could possibly work out without any flaws to ruin the one thing I hope I get to do before my journey in life will be over because in the end we never know when we are gonna go to the great whole in the ground.

Starting A Blog

It's been a while since I had a blog, and I had deleted it a long time ago at some journal website i don't really remember, also I was around 14 so I don't think their was anything of interest I Possibly had written about. Maybe about the crushes I had each month or the lack of friends and how I hated myself and posted my shitty poetry which at the time i got into writing. So anyways I feel I am starting my life fresh and new with the whole blogging thing and as well as my life has had a couple of changes and recently I am in the process of  finding myself and growing and finding self value, their have been events that lead me to where I am trying to start now.

    My life Currently is not going accord to plan. I don't think I had a precise plan which is a bad habit of, I don't do plans I never work them through. So now I'm out of school (again) trying to find a job so I can pay off the school and loans in order for me to get my certificate and transcripts but I cant get the job I went to school for because I don't have the transcripts so I'm stuck in a gab that doesn't really give me any moving space but I got some new leads I can call them up and see if they are in need of a massage therapist and send them my resume. I did not seem to previously mention that I was at a massage therapy academy I finished the first part of the program pretty well the second part I had to drop off it wasn't really working out well for me so now I am currently nowhere as far as school and work is. which is like a step back for myself since I had dropped out of college  and I was jobless as well...very lovely by the way =)  Not everything is all bad though I have a new relationship which is odd but pretty good it's so progressive that even I don't know what it means and that's what makes it work. so I don't remember what was the point of this blog other then having a first post on my new blog. and I think first posts are usually ewither very good or boring mine is probably lacking something but I have no idea what to write about so yeah.....this will get better i promise if not then I guess no one will bother to read my blogs and I well just be posting things for myself to read when I'm old and lonely so I might forget that this is me and think I'm reading a very boring story...so far so good success at my lowest XD